when will i see a end?

what does it mean to pretend?

i have to sit by and pretend i don't love her
her presence is all but not here
this feeling.... of my despair
there's only one thing i wish to see
her with my soul...feelings willing to give
i think about her everyday
if the start hadnt started this way
its my time to pretend
for this feeling will never ever end

i'll lock my soul
guard its treasure
no weakness my armor will reveal
my vunerability that does exist
for her just to be with
just to be with me.
to see this this story to its happy end

S|n